MISS THIS FEELING : i need a vacation

AWWW 

this is just pure cute :D 

i hoep you know why i am unable to do this or why im not the kind of guy that can do  this omg 

younggiftedblaq:

The following is a response post to DanielleMertina’s post on long distance relationships. In order to contextualize this post I encourage you all to read that as a precursor. Her experience (giving you combo of Black feminist theory/Black Arts Movement poetry realness) breaks it down so it can…

please dont think this way omg 

It’s 430am and I basically spent 3 hours registering for classes/ creating my schedule :(

Anyway that’s not the point… I’m really sorry i sounded so down tonight :/ I know I’m supposed to be all optimistic but sometimes the way things are heading it just looks so… Sigh-able.

I guess what I was truly scared about is that this would just give you a legit reason to give up on me— because to be honest we barely see each other anymore and now we only get to talk on weekends. And by the time we get past the usuals (that’s if our calls can last that long) that would leave barely enough time for the true talking… And like, all our silly little arguments. Haha this sounds so Stupid I’m sorry :( I love you so much, but I really really want to grow together with you too. I really want us to grow together. and the sucky thing is that with the severely limited communication options we have it makes me very… Sad. Scared. Both maybe.

When you were first confined/ at field camp/ uncontactable through FB etc there were some nights where I would be on our whatsapp/ our tumblr and have a mini panic attack because I was thinking too much (i thought that without my physical presence/ texting you I would have no idea how you really felt and then what if you no longer missed me as much, or wanted this to work out anymore. hahaha ok I know this is irrational thinking in your opinion but just hear me out please) Don’t misunderstand— I don’t mind monologuing because this is you. I would do it for you just that… some nights the missing will just “get to me”… It’s really hard to explain umm. well just try visualizing if I became completely uncontactable for a week? It’s just the “feeling”, I don’t know how to put it in words :)

Please understand that i trust you and I believe in this but at the same time I honestly find it quite hard not to be a tiny bit upset. it just is. I’m not sure if you’re :( too but I just can’t help it haha.

I miss talking to you omg
I’m always thinking of options but this one truly stumps me
I just hope that things will not get any harder

Actually no, I just want you, and everything that you already do :)